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One's approach to life can be taken several ways --
one being sort of the floating along, "come what may", sort of passive observer type of point of view;
then there is the active, "I make life what it will be,"
and then there is sort of the in-between, or the "I don't know really, but maybe if I want something enough, I'll grab it" sort of point of view.

If I were to classify the person I have been all along, I'd hazard a guess that I'm sort of the "floating along," type who sort of made it this far only because I was lucky enough to be born into a pragmatic family who kind of kept me walking in a general direction (even if I generally kind of floated randomly). But for all intensive purposes, I've been a daydreamer from the time I was little, creating stories during playtime, or later in my head when nothing else was there to occupy my hands and mind.

One of the charming things about being a daydreamer is that you're easily self-entertained and sustained. But on the downside, I gather that a person who lives in dreams finds life sometimes a little too easily to accept. Your motivations are inwardly driven and shaped, you kind of don't care much about external things like praise, fame, awards... money, only so much as to let you keep daydreaming comfortably :)

You get kind of complacent and lazy. In my case, I'm not sure it's okay to continue to be sort of in la-la land. Shouldn't I be doing something with an active imagination? Shouldn't your natural tendencies (gifts?) be steered towards something productive? Wouldn't that maximize both my creativity and overall happiness?

That's one thing I've been pondering... among many things. You see, I dont' want to get to my mid-life crisis and REALLY freak out when I evaluate where I've been heading all along.
I'd rather be fiddling with my compass now, shaking it about, looking at maps and thinking of places I'd like to go.

I'd like to really sense of who am I going to be the next ten to fifteen years and then try to stop being a random tumbleweed.
I want to emerge from this next decade being able to say without any regrets "I knew what I wanted and I chased it down."

To get there, I think I'd like to know the questions I should be asking myself and the scenarios I should be imagining as a means to figuring it all.
Like for starters, "WHAT MAKES ME HAPPY."


on 2010-01-20 05:30 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile]
Same situation. (hugs)

on 2010-01-20 11:32 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile]

I think the most dreamers like us can hope for is that once we choose a path, it's one we can live with and be happy with, and have few regrets (if any). I've chosen a path but I'm still not sure if it's quite the right one. It sure felt like it at first. Now, I'm not so sure. :( Certainly I want to create things, but I still feel constricted in a way. Or that I'm missing out on something bigger or more fulfilling in my field.

Anyway, I wish you the best of luck! I believe you have a lot of potential and creativity in you. *hugs*

Things I think you can ponder...

on 2010-01-21 03:01 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile]
1) children's book

2) art book

3) short graphic novel

4) book of poems

on 2010-01-23 03:01 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile]
Glad to see an update from you again. It seems like it's been a while but maybe it's just me. In any case...
I promise to get around to writing that entry about my childhood that was an offshoot of a conversation we has last May. ^^;; hehheh... I'm taking a writing class this semester which involves a lot of creativity and introspection, so hopefully I can kill two birds with one stone with that one.

I have always classified myself as a dreamer, however,
"I gather that a person who lives in dreams finds life sometimes a little too easily to accept. Your motivations are inwardly driven and shaped, you kind of don't care much about external things like praise, fame, awards... money..."
I find I have to personally disagree with this statement. Then again, perhaps it just depends on WHAT one dreams about? I daydream because I CANNOT accept my day-to-day life, and I want my reality to mirror my dreams. I want to achieve wealth and recognition so I can work on molding my life around the things I have always dreamt of. In this way, my dreams are what GIVE me my direction, because I want to be able to make them realities someday, and I know in order to do that, I must first work hard. Although there have definitely been times when I have questioned my choice to shoot for the stars; sometimes I just ask myself what the point of it all is and if I'm not just making myself a slave to the system that has become society. I would love to just go backpacking around Europe without any obligation, and I've come to the conclusion that the only way for me to be able to be spontaneous and do things like this is to earn a high paying job to support that lifestyle... like school and a job are just a side-track or detour to what I really want, but then I wonder if I won't just be stuck on that sideroad, working my whole life with no time to be spontaneous... A sabbatical every 7 years won't satisfy me. Not to mention I'm a huge procrastinator and I wonder if that will hinder my search for greatness.

And I just wanted to point something out, the phrase is actually "for all intents and purposes", not "for all intensive purposes". I just point it out not to be a stickler, but because I used to think it was the same thing and I was amazed when I found out it wasn't, haha. So I'm just passing that knowledge along. :)

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