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For the entirety of this year, I had wondered if my creative side had died a quick death thanks to the excessive work of last year and so many other things occurring that kept me from feeling any desire or energy to sit down and write. However, picking up a camera again this year has shown me that that particular artistic side isn't gone, it just has become impatient.


Photography is exciting because you can literally get the perfect shot within a few seconds. It amazes me that just having a good eye can result in the creation of a good shot. Five minutes set up. Many minutes of viewing pleasure.

Contrast that with the last few painted works I have placed out there. Six hours is a minimum to get something with depth on paper. But then the work put in goes upwards from there.

That said, the problem with painting and drawing is that when you are a person who wants to capture something and have it understood and appreciated, that one's technical limitations as an artist results in a sense of completed works not quite being "what you want", which then begets a sense of disappointment and then an increasing dissatisfaction with each work that doesn't meet the mark.

I no longer derive much joy from the complete work. Nor am I willing to sit another 4 hours on a piece to perfect lighting. And I think this shows. More disappointment, Self-denigration and discouragement . Rinse. Lather. Repeat.

The beauty of photography again is that realizing at the end of the day that you just had an okay, but not fantastic shot, and not being upset about it. Random error is expected. Perfection is not.

...

On the writing front, I haven't sat down and typed out any fragments of stories in many months. That too, I blame on being distracted with other entertainments and with work. Writing for me must occur from a quiet point within myself, when I can sit down and slowly build the world in my imagination from which I place characters and envision them running about like mad fools. I build visual sets in my mind ... akin to a sort of almost delirious form of daydreaming when it is at its most strongest.

However, lately it has been hard to find that perfect point from which to lightly leap off the cliff into imagination.

But somehow traveling this year has seemed to reset a lot of my thinking. Perhaps it was simply being taken away from the madness of everyday life. Or perhaps it's simply facing more white hairs this year than I know what to do with that has made me suddenly shift /cut/ and moderate my various distractions. Or perhaps its because I've started to stop treading water and want to make some changes .

I am not sure what is going on, but I feel like I'm poised to start writing again.

Bears. Fairies. Proud men. Lovely women. I want to write them all.

on 2010-07-16 12:54 pm (UTC)
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Posted by [identity profile] reynardine.livejournal.com
Go for it! If the mood is on you, take advantage of it!

on 2010-08-08 02:22 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] paulownia.livejournal.com
yeah!!! been drawing again and did a bit of writing recently in spurts.... hope to ramp up in the fall/winter.

on 2010-07-16 03:16 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] mouichi.livejournal.com
I think it's good to test waters on other arts. When I get really frustrated and restless from drawing, I like to go downstairs and play piano or violin. For me, music offers something different that I can't express in drawing :)

on 2010-08-08 02:21 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] paulownia.livejournal.com
Yeah - Music is actually more about direct emotional expression for me. It seems more attuned to what is going on with my own feelings at the moment. I miss playing music, but I still listen to quite a bit :)

on 2010-07-16 06:31 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] wisedonkey.livejournal.com
The beauty of photography again is that realizing at the end of the day that you just had an okay, but not fantastic shot, and not being upset about it. Random error is expected. Perfection is not.


True, unless you're getting paid.

on 2010-08-08 02:21 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] paulownia.livejournal.com
Yes... but overall, I don't get paid for anything artistic, so I don't need to worry :)

on 2010-07-20 08:43 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] bigfootbeliever.livejournal.com
Hello there stranger. :)
"Photography is exciting because you can literally get the perfect shot within a few seconds."
I find that as much as I try to practice the old "patience is a virtue" addage, I'm also one who prefers the sort of instant gratification you speak of. I feel rather cheated if I invest a lot of time in my art and it isn't exactly how I want it. (Which is why I'm stalling on making more blue prints, but that's another story.) But you are right, with photos a few minutes work yields tons of shots which you can choose the best from. It's just easier overall. But I still think it's important to occasionally touch base with the more difficult stuff. It's ok to step away from it for a while though. Sometimes our creativity does get impatient and that's ok, I think.

"Writing for me must occur from a quiet point within myself, when I can sit down and slowly build the world in my imagination from which I place characters and envision them running about like mad fools. I build visual sets in my mind ... akin to a sort of almost delirious form of daydreaming when it is at its most strongest.
However, lately it has been hard to find that perfect point from which to lightly leap off the cliff into imagination.
"
I can relate. My writers spark has kind of been in remission this summer, but I blame that on it's exhausted state from the writing for publication class I took in the spring. I have faith in a writer's/artist's ability to go through creative stages and retain all the same old quality and vision they strive for though.

Can't wait to see what comes of your new artistic season. :)

on 2010-08-08 02:20 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] paulownia.livejournal.com
Yeah - you're absolutely right. Doing what's easiest or most "gratifying" can result in some bad habits, e.g., a lot of fanartists seem to have stagnated since they end up being driven by the cycle of selling and conventions rather than creating things on their own. I'm much happier now as an artist doing what I want in that regard, although it's clear that without someone waving a stick at me, I tend to be much slower in creation.

I've been writing (quietly) in a few places now (on LJ) and then doodling again. Overall, just going back and forth between different outlets of expression to see if I can get back to some kind of regular rhythm of producing stuff :)

on 2010-08-06 01:21 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] teagrrl.livejournal.com
I'm really trying to start practicing photography again. I think I'm going to be more serious about it this time.

I read infrequently because grad school is time consuming, but I do read your posts. :)

on 2010-08-08 02:18 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] paulownia.livejournal.com
Ahhh, at least LJ isn't completely dead yet. Ever since most people moved to Facebook, it seems like the average interaction on the net has dwindled. I don't even see people bothering with blog posts much anymore> guess they just sort of gave up on writing and getting feedback.


What kind of camera do you have btw? And what kinds of things do you like to shoot?

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